In our class today we get to blog about what ever is on our minds. And on mine is people. Just, normal, wired, crazy, loving, amazing, outgoing people. Because being this age, 14, and being a girl, its hard to know people you can trust or even be "friends" with. I do have people that I've been friends with for YEARS, since kindergarten. And sometimes I don't know if I can trust them. Also I'm the kind of person that doesn't talk about my feelings, and its really bad. I keep it all bottled up and I can never tell anyone how I'm feeling. No, I'm not the kind of person that doesn't show emotion, I just don;t talk about my feelings. I can hear other peoples feelings and you know help, if they're sad or calm them down if they are mad.
Do you ever feel like, its you against the world? Or no ones your friend? Because I do, all the time. Theres just times where you feel completely alone, you know? Sometimes its hard, and other times, well can I just say, sometimes I'm alright with feeling completely alone in this world. And some people tell you that everything is gonna be okay, and other people have bigger issues than you. But it doesn't feel that way. You only the worst you've been through, so when someone says that, its hard to believe.
Just one more question, have you ever woken up and faked a smile all day?
I know exactly how you feel! I burst into tears today - for all sorts of reasons, but that is NOT what I typically do. I'm much more like you - keep my feelings to myself. That is okay... to a point. It is so important to find people to trust. It isn't always easy. I appreciate your posts and your raw emotion. Writing is one way to sort through your emotions... hopefully this helps!
ReplyDeleteI know exactly what you mean. And life is the biggest challenge you'll ever face. You're not given preporation or notice, you're just here. You live life, kind of figure out why and then depart.
ReplyDeleteIt's really hard to think that anybody else is going through stuff sometimes, because we only experience our own reality and sometimes that shuts off out ability to be empathetic of others. Sometimes just forgetting everything you were thinking about, finding a new nonrelevent to your life subject and thinking about that can be nice, and it will bring you to quite the strange random, and even helpful conclusions. Keep prodding your mind.. I feel like you have a productive way of thinking.